Saturday, September 14, 2002

Here is the latest test of the day....

Which Classic Book Are You?
Book: Daphne Du Maurier's Rebecca.
Synopsis: Rebecca is a novel of mystery and passion, a dark psychological tale of secrets and betrayal, dead loves and an estate called Manderley that is as much a presence as the humans who inhabit it: 'when the leaves rustle, they sound very much like the stealthy movement of a woman in evening dress, and when they shiver suddenly and fall, and scatter away along the ground, they might be the pitter, patter of a woman's hurrying footsteps, and the mark in the gravel the imprint of a high-heeled satin shoe.' Manderley is filled with memories of the elegant and flamboyant Rebecca, the first Mrs. DeWinter; with the obsessive love of her housekeeper, Mrs. Danvers, who observes the young, timid second Mrs. DeWinter with sullen hostility; and with the oppressive silences of a secretive husband, Maxim. Rebecca may be physically dead, but she is a force to contend with, and the housekeeper's evil matches that of her former mistress as a purveyor of the emotional horror thrust on the innocent Mrs. DeWinter. The tension builds as the new Mrs. DeWinter slowly grows and asserts herself, surviving the wicked deceptions of Mrs. Danvers and the silent deceits of her husband, to emerge triumphant in the midst of a surprise ending that leaves the reader with a sense of haunting justice.
Excerpt: Last night I dreamt I went to Manderley again. It seemed to me I stood by the iron gate to the drive, and for a while I could not enter for the way was barred to me. There was a padlock and a chain upon the gate. I called in my dream to the lodgekeeper, and had no answer, and peering closer through the rusted spokes of the gate I saw that the lodge was uninhabited.
Amazon: Rebecca
Which Classic Book Are You?

Yep. Been a while yet again. Hopefully, now that I actually have a schedule that I have to stick to, these updates will be more regular.

As for the changes, well, I got a new job. Instead of a cashier, I'm now a file clerk at a rather prominent insurance company in the area. It's a decent job. Good pay. The people there are great. Unfortunately, I'm starting to realize that I really wasn't meant for the cookie-cutter lifestyle that I see a lot of people living. I'm already chafing at the 'day job' structure of my life. I don't want to wake up at 7 am every day. I don't want to work at this company and retire in 35+ years with nothing but my pension and maybe a house and a car to show for all my years of work.

I really long to live my life by own terms. To write all day if I want. To live in my fantasy worlds and not be chained to a desk all day. How is that going to happen? I WANT to be a full time writer. How do I do this? Well, actually writing steadily would be a good start. I'm going to start at 1000 words a day and see how long I can keep up with that. I have a few projects that I'm playing with, so I have plenty to work with. I WILL do this. I will not live my life chained to a desk.